Secret Lives of Mormon Wives’ Jessi Draper on Face Plastic Surgery

Jessi Draper Ngatikaura isn’t keeping any secrets when it comes to her plastic surgeries.

The Secret Lives of Mormon Wives star candidly detailed her recovery process after undergoing multiple cosmetic procedures on her face, including an upper and lower blepharoplasty and facial fat grafting, in an Instagram video on Jan. 20.

Though Jessi, 33, expected some swelling in the aftermath of her surgeries, she admitted that she didn’t expect it to be so severe—or to receive such negative feedback about her decisions.

“Believe it or not, this is actually not how I want to look,” she explained in the video as she prepared for a visit to her doctor, where she was planning to receive steroid injections in her face to help reduce swelling and inflammation. “A lot of people in the comments are like, ‘She ruined her face, she looks so scary.’ I’m still healing, I’m swollen.”

The reality star—who shares kids Jagger, 5, and Jovi, 3, with estranged husband Jordan Ngatikaura—then emphasized, “I want to make it clear: I did not want to look like this. This is not the result I’m going for, but it’s just part of the healing process.”